Well well, the 25th of December. For the first time in a while I woke before my alarm. I sat up hearing my Momma Love in the kitchen and smiled. But I laid back down and waited for her to tell me to get up. I knew she had a lot to do so I didn't want to crowd her. But when I heard her shout me I knew she was just as excited as I was to get into the living room and open all the presents!
So I did, but not before having a wake up smoke. But I kept finding myself stopping and watching my Mum as she opened some of hers. To see the smile on her face as she gets ANOTHER "A Christmas Carol" on Dvd (addiction don't know why?) or her favourite perfume or chocolates. I noticed that when I opened my presents she was watching to see my reaction. Even at 20 years old she just wanted me to be happy. And I'm guessing it's because I am older now that I want to watch and see if she is pleased herself. I know christmas isn't supposed to be about the presents. It is about family and being together, but I find that you know how much someone cares by the types of gifts they give you. My sister remembered a facebook status i'd posted about being impressed by a scrabble ring, so she got me one. My Mum noticed me checking out some books and quicky snatched one up. I didn't have much money to spend this christmas so I could only give little things. But my sister went all teary eyed when she opened the picture frame with a picture of us in it from one of our girly nights.
It has been a brilliant day, and hopefully a brilliant night, as I'm headed to my sisters for food, drinks and ohhhh the fun and games. Especially the drinks though.
So just remember that presents isn't what it's all about. Be happy that you are with people who you care about and who care about you.
Merry Christmas Cyber People! Get drunk be merry and raise those christmas spirits! <3
Sunday, 25 December 2011
Thursday, 22 December 2011
Christmas Crappers.
Okay, I understand that at christmas everything is a little tight (waistline and money bags). Of course I understand this being that I have just moved into a house at university with this comes extra bills, gas, electric, tv licence, sky, phone (which I DO NOT USE). So this christmas I have like no money to spend on family. My mother tells me that my Dad got some money back from taxes (no idea why) and that he said he'd be happy to help. I can guarantee that he won't and if he does. Well there will be an absolutely amazed outburst later on. But he says I have to wait until saturday (reminder saturday 24th would be christmas frickin' eve!) so once again I have to wear a santa hat (mine is usually black and says bah humbug, my fathers idea of a joke because I used to wear black all the time) and go shopping at the most ridiculous time for my beloved mother and a stupid wench my Dad calls his girlfriend. Stupid Wench also knows I have minimal funds to spend and when I ask her what I can get for my little sister (half-sister 10 years of age) she says oh get her that blah blah blah One Direction cd. Yes it is only £10 but this means it is ALL I can get her and I feel a right bitch. Not that she would care because she is ten and she is happy to see Harry on the front cover. I then ask her about what to get my Dad. She has no clue. This would be the woman who when I asked my fathers shoe size she said "oh he can be a 6, 7, or an 8". (She has lived with the man for at LEAST 10 years, you'd think she would know this by now). So I am livid. Livid that this stupid woman my Dad "loves" has put me in this awful position (yes I know I shouldn't have spent so much of my student finance on crap but she is not helping matters).
I am not a selfish person, but I can see that if someone looked at the gifts I get at christmas and the gifts I give people will think I am. I am just not a very good gift giver, my elder sister is somehow every year she astounds me with the things she gets me. All I can give her is a beloved dvd of a film we watched and loved when younger. I try harder for my Mum because she basically raised me alone and she deserves so much (long story). I have already bought her a gift, (she has some weird obsession with "A Christmas Carol" so I bought her the new one) I need to get her the Indiana Jones box set, Slippers, Lace (perfume) and after 8's (her faves). The problem with Mum is that she does not write a list, she just says things in passing that I will never rememeber ever. Wench writes a list (presumptious eh?) and she EXPECTS everything off of the list. So every year I try and think of MORE presents for Mum because lets face it it is not fair if Wench gets more. I have saved all of Mum's present buying for Saturday and I swear if he says i'm paying for Mum myself whilst he pays for Wenches I am going to scratch his eyes out.
Ahhh relax now, only 2 days (ish) til the shopping is either underway or over. I absolutely cannot wait. Then I can spend christmas with Mum and boxing say (cringe) with Dad and my lil sis and his girlfriend. It sucks because usually I totally dig christmas, spending time with the family and shizzle. But now I'm thinking, I get to forget about all this crappiness for a day and just chillax and by the time I have chance to think about it the fume will be long gone like the wrapping paper and boxes that my presents have come in. I do not know if I will write anymore before the spectacular day so I will say now. Merry Christmas to all! And have a Happy New Year. Keep passing the open windows.
I am not a selfish person, but I can see that if someone looked at the gifts I get at christmas and the gifts I give people will think I am. I am just not a very good gift giver, my elder sister is somehow every year she astounds me with the things she gets me. All I can give her is a beloved dvd of a film we watched and loved when younger. I try harder for my Mum because she basically raised me alone and she deserves so much (long story). I have already bought her a gift, (she has some weird obsession with "A Christmas Carol" so I bought her the new one) I need to get her the Indiana Jones box set, Slippers, Lace (perfume) and after 8's (her faves). The problem with Mum is that she does not write a list, she just says things in passing that I will never rememeber ever. Wench writes a list (presumptious eh?) and she EXPECTS everything off of the list. So every year I try and think of MORE presents for Mum because lets face it it is not fair if Wench gets more. I have saved all of Mum's present buying for Saturday and I swear if he says i'm paying for Mum myself whilst he pays for Wenches I am going to scratch his eyes out.
Ahhh relax now, only 2 days (ish) til the shopping is either underway or over. I absolutely cannot wait. Then I can spend christmas with Mum and boxing say (cringe) with Dad and my lil sis and his girlfriend. It sucks because usually I totally dig christmas, spending time with the family and shizzle. But now I'm thinking, I get to forget about all this crappiness for a day and just chillax and by the time I have chance to think about it the fume will be long gone like the wrapping paper and boxes that my presents have come in. I do not know if I will write anymore before the spectacular day so I will say now. Merry Christmas to all! And have a Happy New Year. Keep passing the open windows.
Hello People!
I am not even sure if people read this but never mind I shall carry on eh?
Right I must apologise for the increasingly depressing things I write. But my friends have mentioned that I write to make myself feel better. If I stop I might blow up.
Soooo it has been a while, a few months in fact. And not a damn lot has happened since. Well you know that saying "You wait for one bus and three come at once?" it kind of links to me at the moment (but not relating to buses because the buses around here are absolute pants! I waited for nearly half an hour for a bus! And it is not like there is a load/any of snow around her so goodness knows what that bus driver was playing at!) No I am relating this saying to men/guys/boys, there are/were 3.
1) "Fliend" He is lovely, sweet, funny if emotionally stunted. But he is a really good friend of mine and i have never ever thought of him in that way. Until now.
2) "New guy", first year at Uni we just clicked, and one night after going out to a club things happened (sorry no details for you) and now we are basically seeing one another but without the verbal contract.
3) "Old boyfriend" and since I gave another old boyfriend more than enough chances I am more inclined to NO SECOND CHANCES. But he insists there is chemistry there. And yes I agree there is but it does not mean I intend to act upon it. So there he is all wanty and needy.
My housemate at UNI thinks this is great, she wishes it would happen to her. But no I disagree, profusely, it is not fun when you have to hurt a dear friend of yours and your head is spinning with all the "what if's". Not to mention that it's great to be involved with someone, but when it's about a 3 week vacation you completely ending up missing the soppy but oh so sweet guy you get to kiss and cuddle usually at LEAST once a day. But what is a girl to do? I am glad there are people out there that feel my pain. Because believe it or not this is stressful. Live long and prosper cyber beings!
I am not even sure if people read this but never mind I shall carry on eh?
Right I must apologise for the increasingly depressing things I write. But my friends have mentioned that I write to make myself feel better. If I stop I might blow up.
Soooo it has been a while, a few months in fact. And not a damn lot has happened since. Well you know that saying "You wait for one bus and three come at once?" it kind of links to me at the moment (but not relating to buses because the buses around here are absolute pants! I waited for nearly half an hour for a bus! And it is not like there is a load/any of snow around her so goodness knows what that bus driver was playing at!) No I am relating this saying to men/guys/boys, there are/were 3.
1) "Fliend" He is lovely, sweet, funny if emotionally stunted. But he is a really good friend of mine and i have never ever thought of him in that way. Until now.
2) "New guy", first year at Uni we just clicked, and one night after going out to a club things happened (sorry no details for you) and now we are basically seeing one another but without the verbal contract.
3) "Old boyfriend" and since I gave another old boyfriend more than enough chances I am more inclined to NO SECOND CHANCES. But he insists there is chemistry there. And yes I agree there is but it does not mean I intend to act upon it. So there he is all wanty and needy.
My housemate at UNI thinks this is great, she wishes it would happen to her. But no I disagree, profusely, it is not fun when you have to hurt a dear friend of yours and your head is spinning with all the "what if's". Not to mention that it's great to be involved with someone, but when it's about a 3 week vacation you completely ending up missing the soppy but oh so sweet guy you get to kiss and cuddle usually at LEAST once a day. But what is a girl to do? I am glad there are people out there that feel my pain. Because believe it or not this is stressful. Live long and prosper cyber beings!
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